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Son-in-Law

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September 1, 2011

 

She’s on her knees, leaning over the tub,
wringing the grimy wet from an old woolen sweater,
watching the blackened circles of water fold themselves

down, down into the battered bathtub drain
that leads to the cesspool, that leads to the sluggish river.
And just as the whirlpool’s rattle slips into silence,

and her knees have begun to memorize the ridged floor
pressing its patterns and flourishes into her thinning skin,
the phone rings for the second time this morning.

“How you been?” he asks when she picks up,
and she answers, “Oh, not too bad,”
as if they hadn’t solemnly bowed their way

through this dance two hours ago,
while she was emptying last year’s freezer-wizened beans
into the chicken pail, while she was counting

cans of juice and packages of pork chops.
But if she’s already told him about the old camper—
“The one back in the woods, back there

behind my cousin Dave’s place. You know,
the body’s a wreck but Ralph’s figuring
to haul it out so he can salvage the motor,”

or about the dahlias she’s planted—
“Red ones they should of been, and purple
with a little stripe, but every last one came up yellow”—

he won’t care. This is what he wants, really:
stories that don’t matter to anyone;
and relaying her harmless gossip,

she feels her voice deepen and stretch,
as if she’s a cassette tape spooling out at half speed.
She listens to his eager perfunctory replies,

and her eyes prickle with the pity of it,
a pity that hurts her like her knees hurt
when they’re remembering their pattern of sorrow.

“He’s the children’s father” is all she can think to say
to the neighbors who want her to stop picking up the phone.
She won’t go so far as to remind them,

“Oh, don’t he miss those kids,” but that’s the truth.
Why else would he have locked them in that room,
and waved that gun, and howled? Why else,

if he hadn’t understood he’d lost the game,
hadn’t marked himself as dead?
He’s no surprise to her; so when he wails down the line,

“I won’t never see them again!” all she says is
“I got your clean shirts folded here on the bar.”
With a swagger he shouts back, “I ain’t afraid of you!”

and still he’s like the boy he used to be,
the one she recalls at summer Bible school,
pouring Kool-Aid on her little girl

because he couldn’t stop needing the joy
of that freckled outrage.
Anger always did soothe him. It always did.

“I’ll get up to, your place one of these days,”
he stammers now, and “I know you will,”
she says, mild as rain, before she lets herself

hang up the phone, before she sits down
at the vinyl tablecloth and cries a little,
before she takes herself back to her own dirty work.

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Dawn Potter (1426)-100.jpgDawn Potter is the author of three collections of poetry and a memoir. New work appears in the Threepenny Review, The Southern Review, Prairie Schooner, and many other journals. She co-directs the Frost Place Conference on Poetry and Teaching, held each summer at Robert Frost’s home in Franconia, New Hampshire; and she lives in Harmony, Maine.

Homepage photograph via Flickr by Laura Norton-Cruz

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