Kimi Eisele is a writer, dancer/choreographer, and visual artist in Tucson, AZ. Her nonfiction has appeared in Orion, FourthGenre, Edible Baja Arizona, Terrain.org, and The Sonoran Desert: A Literary Field Guide. In 2016 she directed "Standing with Saguaros," a three-act performance project celebrating the iconic species for the National Park Service Centennial. Her first novel will be published by Algonquin Books in 2019. This essay is an excerpt from a larger work in progress.